Stupid, Idiotic Things from Work

So, here’s the thing. Every day is another day that something happens at my job that is retarded and can’t happen in the private sector, at least it seems so stupid that it must be only an Army thing. The past couple of days, however, have been something that I have not experienced in my four years of working for the Army Reserve. A few instances stand out, so I will start with the one that happened first and how everything else has just spiraled out of control since then.

1) I am sick of the assumption by the powers that be that we will stay in our jobs no matter what. Everyone seems to think that we are going to be around for ever, hence them not caring much when awards get returned due to “administrative errors” and not resubmitting them. Or telling us that we can’t deploy because we are too valuable but not fighting to keep us around with said bonuses and other awards. I have informed those above me that I would like to deploy; I have an opportunity with a sister unit and it would really be beneficial for me, both financially and for my military career. The response I get is “You can’t deploy with a unit that you don’t work for without a waiver.” I understand that; just fill out the damn waiver and let somebody more important than you make that decision. I have already decided that if I am not allowed to deploy, I am quitting my job to do so. They can’t say anything then. Either way, they are losing me for a year or more, but at least if they let me go on my terms, I may come back afterward. That doesn’t look so likely in either case now. I may just move back to Utah as planned and really leave them in a lurch.

2) Integrity. It is one of the Army values that is instilled from day one of Basic Training. But when you are called out for doing something you are not supposed to do, you don’t lie and say you are not doing it. Admit your “mistake,” take the punishment and move on. One of our full-timers has apparently been moonlighting as a mechanic for the local transit authority, outside of duty hours, but it has been affecting his performance at work. I know this because his other supervisor called me to confirm some stuff…not really my place, so I passed it on to his unit. When his unit tries to take care of it, he denies that he is working this second job. Whatever, loser. I hope that they have no qualms about separating you and your deadbeat wife from the program.

3) Power-hungry c**** (for lack of a better word): Just because you finally get paid what you think you are worth doesn’t suddenly make you the person in charge. It doesn’t really work that way, sweetheart, but thanks for playing. Apparently when you attend conferences and other training, you don’t pay attention. I make more than you, but I never claim to be your boss, but maybe I should. Or do you think you make more than me too? I don’t think so. I don’t care that you went to Baylor or that you studied abroad in Europe, or that you may have worked for USARSO. Just shut up and work your 40 hours a week, and actually work them, not just some bullshit numbers on a fraudulent time card. If you want to be an officer, get your fat ass off the couch and lose some weight so you can stop wearing that girdle everywhere. Maybe pass a PT test too and get DMOSQ. I know I want to be an officer too and that I am not ready to do it, but I don’t walk around saying that people are going to be sorry when I am because then I’ll really be in charge. I cry bullshit yet again.

Grr…I hate my job! Most (90%) of the people that I work with and interact on a daily basis are fine and I don’t mind them. It’s the other 10% or so that really irritate the shit out of me. I want them to go away. One has left; only four more or so to go.

Can’t we all just get along?

I’ve seen a lot of stuff around lately, mostly from conservative-types out West. Apparently, with the big presidential election coming in November, the Christian Right is again pressing more states to adopt the so-called “Marriage Amendment,” an amendment to state constitutions that defines marriage only as a union between man and woman. To me, this is ridiculous. I fail to see what the point is.

Sure, people like to focus on the families and everything, but why can’t people focus on happiness? Who cares what the gender of the one you decide to spend your life with? Is is anybody else’s business what you decide to do in your own life? No. Fifty percent of marriage ends in divorce anyway. Why not focus on the 50% of marriages ending in divorce instead of focusing on the one’s that might actually have a chance? There are more problems in this country, too many to really mention, and we are concerned that Ellen and Portia can get married, legally, in another state that we don’t live in? Big deal!

There was a time in this country where it was illegal, in some parts of the country, for an African-American to marry a Caucasian. These same “Red States” that once thought this was illegal are now trying to do the same thing to Same-Sex Marriage. Find something else to worry about, please?

What to do, what to do…

So, I am having a dilemma lately. Not a really big one, but one nonetheless. Lately, I have become bored with everything that is my life. Nothing that I used to do excites me anymore. These things include:

1) Reading – I have a book that is for all intents and purposes very interesting, but I cannot find the motivation to actually pick it up again and read

2) Running – While it has been some time since I actually enjoyed running, I would like to get back to that point sometime soon, but even on decent mornings I struggle to get out of bed, which leads me to…

3) Sleeping – I enjoy sleep. A little bit too much sometimes, but I find it hard to go to sleep at night. I will get tired around 10:30 or so, but can’t make myself go to bed. I find other things to occupy my time instead of sleep, like…

4) Video games – I’ll admit; I play video games, but lately I don’t find I get the same enjoyment out of them. They have become extremely boring sometimes, but it is something to do.

I think this general malaise I am feeling lately has to do with my home life. Not to say that it is unhappy, or sad, or anything like that, but it is just…nothing. I come home, eat dinner, and separate ourselves to our respective rooms around 8 or so and just do our thing. It is getting extremely old rather quickly, though it did and has defined our relationship for nearly seven years.

So I need to do something to change this feeling. I have a few options, but none of them are anything that can happen too quickly. There are smaller things that I can probably do as short-term fixes, but what happens when the short-term is over? So here are the possible solutions, solutions that probably cannot happen before January or so:

a) Move back to Utah – as appealing as this feels sometimes, other days it just seems like I would be taking a seven-year step back

b) Deploy, Army-style – again, this is a solution that has its days and moments, but it is not with a particularly good unit and I don’t know if I can see myself working for those in charge, though I could probably come back and not be so broke-ass and be able to…

c) Go to OCS and go active duty – if I wanted to do this, I would have some work to do seeing as I have to lose around 80 pounds or so and get in better shape overall, but this is one thing that does not seem like a horrible idea, even if I only did the active duty thing for the three year minimum. This too would help with money issues, and I would definitely get away from everything here, but at what cost? That’s why…

d) Take a civilian job in Japan/Kuwait/Korea – sounds appealing. These would be temporary jobs for around 12 months or so, and I would come back with experience at a higher pay grade and have different possibilities open to me. Then again, there is…

e) Go back to school – I really feel like I have this calling to teach, whether it is in high school or college, but it is not something that I can afford to do here, at least not in my current financial state. That’s why a-d seem more doable and why e gets left off the list. I did apply to the U for a second bachelor’s degree, but to go there, I would obviously have to move back to Utah, and I am back to a.

What to do, what to do…

And this doesn’t even factor in my trials and tribulations with the opposite sex right now. With all these other things to worry about, I don’t have time for them, which is unfortunate, since I do like boobies.

I guess there will always be time for that later, when I am svelte and sexy at around 220 pounds and when I can wear normal people clothes again that don’t make me look huge and bloated.

Until then, maybe I will:

1) Get that gym membership, if only to give myself something to do after work a few nights a week.

2) Take some community education stuff of debt management and budgeting, maybe a Spanish class or two

3) Find more people to spend time with and branch out in my social network.

Who knows what they future holds?